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It's time I give in to what's been scaring me. Sorry for the whole repeating topic, but with any luck it will be the last time we have to worry about this.
Of course, I am talking about Danielle and that ray of hope deep within me that feels the friendship will get back to the way it once was. Ever since the fight I have had this hope that things will get better and I think… no I know that it was that which was tearing me up. All the desires I had for things to be the way they were, were what lifted me up just to be let down every time I saw that nothing had changed.
So from now on I'm giving up on the hope for us to ever be friends again, not that I won't welcome it if it does come back, but I won't be waiting for it. Of course even though I might never be her friend again I will always care for her and be there for her even if I'm not there with her.
So, I undergo this heart transplant in attempts to finally stop feeling bad of what I no longer have. I replace the heart that feels regret and remorse for what happen with a new one, wiping the proverbial slate clean. Maybe now I'll stop feeling empty and start looking at the things I do still have.
Here's hoping
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