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There is nothing scarier than realizing that something you believed all your life just simply isn't true.
Like when you thought your parents knew everything, and then discover that they are just as scared as you are, sometimes.
Or when you thought that someone was invincible, and then they are hurt worse than you'd care to believe.
Or when you thought that you knew exactly where your life was going, and then find out that you don't have a clue.
Or the best one, that there is someone out there for you, but you start to believe they are the ones with major issues. 
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i make a lot more sense in my head.
in my head, everything is planned out perfectly. i always know exactly what to say. i never stutter, i never search for words. my point is always crystal clear.
in my head, i am eloquent. i speak in pre-scipted monologue. my audience is always transfixed, and i have the perfect response to every possible question.
in my head, i am always right. my every action, no matter how extreme, is justified. my every word is truth.
but the second i open my mouth, i forget all my lines. i don't know what to do with my hands. and suddenly, i'm not so sure anymore.
Wow
Well, I met her… the girl I mentioned on Nov 1. She is great. Very intelligent, very pretty, an amazing smile. And she is intelligent to boot. Go figure.
We talked for HOURS… I got there at around 7 or so and next thing you know, its 1am. She's had it rough in the past but the potential for her is infinite….
Speaking of potential…
Isn't it that feeling of a higher power overwhelming your emotions? Kissing up to your strengths then falling back to astonish your weaknesses once more. You are left with only potential. That potential can either invigorate your confidence, or the weaknesses that you know are still hidden deep within you. A choice in feelings that you really don't possess. What happens?
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this morning, on the way to work, i felt it again. creeping up. the tinge of depression i feel every year once the days get shorter and the nights get colder.
sometimes i relish it; knowing that it helps me to appreciate everything just a little bit more.
but it's very unwelcome this year. there are so many opportunities for me, and things look like they are going to work out… possibly.
and of course i am talking about girls.
well, one girl in particular.
it's something in the way she knows that all i have to do is think of her. whenever i get close to a girl, i wonder what it would be like if we were actually dating. my ridiculously low self esteem and fear of alienation always make me timid to engage in pursuit.
my fear of silence is overwhelming.
i just want to find onethat, with her, i can see ourselves being silent, and loving it.
she would be a part of me more than ever, and i wonder if she would know.
