you say this isnt what you wanted now. that you want to take it back. you took it back last time, too. now im just confused. just as confused as i was an hour ago, except this time you want me now. before you wanted me later, and now you are asking to pretend. i dont pretend with you, so this is hard.
you've always known the difference between you and i- you always leave. i'm always standing here. and thats where you know that you can always come back. my heart belongs to you.
you know that ive always loved you and that i continue to. you know that youre welcomed here whenever. you can leave your shoes on, even the floors dont mind.
i'll say this to you again. if you so insist on playing with my heart, please do so in an orderly fashion. it cant take the pain of you leaving. i told you to think more before the next time. i don't know how to walk without you, but i might find wheels someday. i also told you that forever is yours.
this is just overly dramatic.
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I know its been a bit since I updated, Been busy… and the last four days, depressed.
My cat, Ashley, has vanished. Not even a trace of her. Last I saw her was Tues evening and when I went to bed, she didn't come in like she has always done.Then in the morning, she wasn't there to annoy me with her meowing like she always does. She didn't follow me out to my work van, she didn't meet me when I came home for lunch or after work.
Its now been 4 days and no one knows anything. I put signs up around the hood, no calls, nothing. I have even offered a reward. 
I want my cat back….
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I know what you're doing, I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born
There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious if you have to ask me why
I say goodbye…
'Cause I am barely breathing, And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding, imaging you care
And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain, and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?
'Cause I am barely breathing, And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding, imaging you care
And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
but i'm thinking it over anyway
i'm thinking it over anyway
I've come to find, I may never know
Your changing mind, is it friend or foe?
I rise above, or sink below
With every time, you come and go
Please don't come and go
'Cause I am barely breathing, And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding, imaging you care
And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
i know what you're doing
i see it all to clear
Duncan Sheik's “Barely Breathing”
